Father in heaven, there is so much I don’t understand. The pain of my unchangeable past that haunts my present, the grief of years gone by that revisits in waves, the anniversaries that most people celebrate, but instead bring me sorrow, help me to understand these. Grant me insight and reestablish your peace and joy within me. Help me to lift my eyes to see only your face, Father, for You raise me up. You give me purpose. You are my refuge and my peace. I ask that You rekindle the joy if your salvation in me in the name and authority of Jesus, according to your good and perfect will. Amen.
“My son, if you receive my words and treasure up my commandments with you, making your ear attentive to wisdom and inclining your heart to understanding; yes, if you call out for insight and raise your voice for understanding, if you seek it like silver and search for it as for hidden treasures, then you will understand the fear of the Lord and find the knowledge of God.” (Proverbs 2: 1-5 ESV)